a Life's Story

I am blessed. So are you. Everyone has blessings from Him. All in different ways, because He knows which blessing is better. But we don't. And we like to curse the blessing, saying that it's His wrath. Be grateful, we never would think that we are missing anything that we have. Why mourn over something we don't have; don't need?

Nilaian adil hanya pada Tuhan, sebab manusia sifatnya berat sebelah. Jangan dinilai apa yang tidak nampak, sebaliknya hargai apa yang di depan mata walau sebesar zarah. Mungkin pada Tuhan, nilai zarah itu lebih besar pada-Nya? Wallahu'alam.

Because differences should make us a better person. Because it should make us more aware of what we needed to do. Because it should make us appreciate everything before it's too late, and there's no turning back time. Because to me, it doesn't matter how much money you spend, how great is your look, or how much you can give. Because in the end, what matters is what you should have said, how much time did you spend, and your effort as proof to the words you yourself have thrown around. Apparently, promises are just like words on flyers. Often times thrown into the bin. p/s How many times do I have to go through this until you understand what is the real problem?

Noktah. Titik. Penyudah. Tanda tamat, tanda bermula sesuatu yang berbeza. Tanda bila kita perlu letakkan sesuatu di belakang kerana selepas noktah itu ada sesuatu yang baru.

Yang bila segalanya kau mahu mudah, kau hempukkan sahaja di atas bahu yang lain? Sedangkan itu tanggungjawab kau? Sekarang sudah timbul masalah, salahnya pada yang dibebankan? Adil benar penilaian kau. Mungkin aku tersilap ukur, tersalah mengagak. p/s Takpe, kita chill je. Sabar ye.

Jujur cakap, aku rindu mahu berborak sehingga kedengaran azan Subuh dengan kau. Lepak-lepak seperti anak muda yang tiada arah tuju dalam hidup. Mengumpat, bergosip tentang orang lain tanpa bercermin terlebih dahulu bersama. Aku rindu. Rindu kerana tidak ramai manusia yang mendengar setiap bebelan dan perkataan bukan-bukan yang aku lontarkan tanpa prejudis. Mudah untuk menadah telinga dan menelan semua, tetapi untuk tidak prejudis? Jarang sekali. Kau tidak takut dengan apa yang aku tahu. Kau tidak peduli. Kau dengan dunia kau yang tersendiri. Aku tahu sekian banyak tentang kau, tetapi mustahil untuk aku simpulkan. Dan mungkin juga, kerana itu, kita bukan lagi seperti dulu. Dan aku doakan kau terbuka hati, tercelik mata untuk lihat bagaimana dunia tidak sepolos diri kau.

We usually displayed our emotions on "signboards". When in public, we tried to keep it at the same size and colour as everyone else, in order not to stand out and be noticed. Because everyone's signboard has different writings on it, despite being the same colour and size. In public, showing excessive amount of emotions is uncalled for, to the point of being a freak. Like how someone is feeling sad, and is putting up the signboard (messy hair/ clothes, tears in eyes, etc,) with different colours, people will definitely avoid that someone. Because you are the one who put up the sign. Other citizens are simply abiding the law by obeying the signboard.