Over a month since my last update. Busy? Yeah. No idea? Yeah. But most of the time, no internet connection. *nods* Finals are on its way. I have like, a little over month before the time comes *sigh*
Dua, tiga hari lepas, kat Twitter heboh orang kutuk budak masscomm. Macam-macam provoke aku jumpa, orang butthurt, orang tak kisah, orang yang pujuk orang butthurt cakap "masscomm awesome", macam-macam lagila. Orang lain maybe tak peduli pun pasal benda ni, tapi yela, kalau dah kena kutuk, mestilah nak bela diri sendiri balik, kan? Ijazah Sarjana Muda Komunikasi dan Pengajian Media dengan Kepujian (Kewartawanan). Tu course aku. Aku tak cakap aku budak masscomm dah, aku cakap aku budak Journalism. Sebab apa? Sebab fundamental masscomm dah belajar masa diploma. Masa diploma, yup, aku budak masscomm. (Sekarang pun masscomm, tapi dah ada major). Sebagai budak yang dulunya suka Fizik dan bercita-cita nak sambung belajar Fizik dan kerja dalam bidang Fizik (astronomi ye, tapi kata orang macam far-fetched sangat), aku boleh nampak beza susah senang Fizik (atau subjek Sains in general la) dengan masscomm ni. Memang betul pun belajar masscomm ni senang je, tak macam belaja...
It's kinda funny, to remember how you yourself used to be. You wonder how were you like so, when you are definitely not the same person you are today. Then you remember how nothing has affected you, how nothing will be able to shake you down. Perhaps it was all just a facade. Perhaps whatever it was, was never crazy enough to make you drop down to your knees and beg. Because somehow, there was time when you had faith that everything will be fine, eventually. That faith keeps you going, shaped the you back then. Now that faith is gone, you can no longer keep up with the lies, you can't pretend like everything is fine. How can you pretend to be something that you are not? At least back then you believe so, now? Send help. Even though I don't know what kind is necessary. What help I really needed. It has gone so bad that I know I need help, but I don't know what kind. Because somehow despite all this belief that things have gone wrong; I still think it's all in my hea...
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