a Life's Story

  I don't know how many people are still checking my blog, but in case you do, here goes~

Trust me to sort the mess in my own head. I feel like I'm overworked, but it's semester break and I've just got my last semester results. I'm doing great, thank you. It increased by a little margin, (which is a good thing, I don't have to stress myself out next semester trying to maintain my pointer) and I'm happy for that. But my head is in total mess, I can barely think which stuff I should do first. I think I've been trying to do too much these days, and I'm finally getting the pressure. Here's pretty much what I want to do, though it's mostly fandom related... Translate bump.y's Futari no Hoshi, YUI's Rain, Ikimonogakari's Kimi ga Iru Subbed the three PVs above, plus the ones from fansubbing group, SK (whole epsiode, almost an hour), a clip of Music Station and a radio show Download ALL dramas, movies, variety shows, music and PVs (I've write the list down, and it seem to grow bigger than 100GB o.O) Wallpapers for myself...

I have not lost my will to live but I have found another reason to be happy. I do not give a damn about what people say, but I listened to it and try to correct myself. I have not find a way out of this yet, no, but I am working hard to enjoy the moment I have now. I joked around, play around laugh and smile a lot because that is how I really feel. I said I was down and dispirited but that's a lie, I know it myself. I do not know what is the point of hiding my true feelings and keep putting on a mask. I am happy, I do feel sad and frustrated but I acted like I can feel nothing. I want to be honest, be me and only me. I will show you that someday I will be able to catch my dreams in my hands. My tiny hands that will hold a huge future. Trust me, I am still me and forever will be