Trust me, I am still me and forever will be

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I have not lost my will to live but I have found another reason to be happy.
I do not give a damn about what people say, but I listened to it and try to correct myself.
I have not find a way out of this yet, no, but I am working hard to enjoy the moment I have now.
I joked around, play around laugh and smile a lot because that is how I really feel.
I said I was down and dispirited but that's a lie, I know it myself.

I do not know what is the point of hiding my true feelings and keep putting on a mask.
I am happy, I do feel sad and frustrated but I acted like I can feel nothing.
I want to be honest, be me and only me.
I will show you that someday I will be able to catch my dreams in my hands.
My tiny hands that will hold a huge future.
Trust me, I am still me and forever will be

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