a Life's Story

Do not regret your past, do not fear your future. What if, I didn't do it?  What if, I didn't say it? What if, I choose to be another person? What if, I take another route? What ifs.....  By making mistakes, you learn. By being hurt, you learn how to be strong. By trusting others, you learn that you're not alone. By smiling and laughing like it's okay when it's not, you learn that there's someone who cares, who wants to see your real laugh and smile. Why should you be afraid of the future when you made a mistake? Wise people learn from the mistakes they have made and make themselves better. We are humans, we are not perfect; we can only learn to make ourselves better. Why do you think that people keep making mistakes? It's one way to learn. It may be harsh, but life lessons are something that should accompany you for the rest of your life. Never fret over something that it yet to come, just be prepared for the best and the worst. B...

I missed home. I missed all the mess in my room, I missed the cosy corner where I sat all day in front of my laptop. I missed my bed where I sleep on only when it's light, and get up when the sun is already high in the sky. And everything that I have to worry about are so trivial. Getting into a silly fight with dad, mum's nagging about me not doing even my own dishes, about too lazy doing the laundry, getting scolded by my dad for being so harsh on my little brothers.... I missed home. I wish I can go back anytime I want. Why do they have to live so far away....

Happy birthday to me :) Honestly, I don't know why I posted the .gif... Anyway, here's what I think about birthdays: that being born is something huge, important; but celebrating it has no appeal to me. Living in hostel for so long, its custom tradition of doing bad things like splashing the birthday person with water+++ (well, I hope you get my drift), or having pranks worse than the ones you see on April Fool's Day, plus the fact that birthdays are nothing much in my family, only added to the fact that my birthday celebration is something I often ignore myself. I do feel happy when people wish me, or give me things because it's my birthday. I really appreciate all that. But I'm a weird girl that doesn't give a damn about what day is it. Well, if I remember your birthday, be grateful, because I forget my own sometimes, (LOL) and if I don't, just tell me when is it and if you want me to give you something, I'll do it if possible. Although if you s...

I think, we've told you, life isn't about yourself. I think, I've told you, that no matter how much problems you have, it will only hinder you when you think life is unfair. But is it that life is being unfair to you? Think again. Maybe you're the one who's being unfair to yourself. Have you lost your parents? Have you been living in poverty? Have you been living life alone that you don't have any friends that can support you when you fall? Here's the thing. I think not. I think you're lucky, you have everything everyone thinks that will complete a happy life. Are you grateful with what you have? Nope, I don't think so. Why? Why don't you try to remember; how do you treat your friends, your family, the wealth that you got from your parents. Have you been thinking that you wanted more? Have you been thinking that friends are not that important compared to your boyfriend/ girlfriend? Have you been taking the silly squabbles between you...

Okay, here's one thing that I don't understand. You hate me? Go ahead. You talk about me behind my back? Help yourself. You fabricated things about my life? Let's see who will believe in your lies. But you know what, above all other friends you've got, can you please refrain from talking bad about me to my friends? They're not stupid, the way you might think I am. They've known me longer than you do. And just because I don't hang out with them all the time, doesn't mean we have fall apart and we're not close anymore. Being close is not all about having fun together, it involves being at your friend's side when they need you most. You think my friends are kids? Someone that you can just talked into hating me? Hey, we're laughing behind your back at your stupidity. This is not high school girl, so open up your eyes and stop being a fake in front of me while failing miserably to influence my BEST friends into hating me. I can still take whatev...

Thank you, for giving me work so I can prove myself Thank you, for keep rejecting the work so I can work harder Thank you, for telling me that the work is not suitable at my level so I don't have to restrained myself Thank you, for yelling at me so the whole class wonder what is wrong with me Thank you, for messing my head with an extra problem so I can be stronger Thank you, for making me break down during your presence when I thought I can still handle this Thank you, because I don't know whether I should really hate you or not

It's 7.30am in the morning, and I have a class at 8.30am. But forget that first. ^^ When I first started the rebranding of this blog, I have no idea about how hard is it to keep it updated. Okay, sure I have another blog, but it's very different from this one. I've used to keep diaries some time before, and that blog, or as I refer it to; LJ, is pretty much an online diary. I intended to make this Blogger, as a place to channel creativity. And why creativity? An   idea garden   is simply a place to park your ideas. But it’s not just about planting your ideas somewhere – these seeds need sun and water, as it were.   Without getting the energy and attention they need, they’ll become just another idea that never sees the light of day. Productive Flourishing It's actually my English assignment. I want to write an essay on Blogging: A Mean to Reduce Stress and Channels Creativity. And I might be cutting the reducing stress part, and focus on being creative.  I've al...