Engaged.

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While it may sound too early, or too alien to someone like me, yes, I meant that as getting attached to another, not in the sense of doing something.

Honestly, I'm a little too late in updating. A part of me is tired of work, another is still feeling faraway, because I still remember telling everyone about not getting attached (married, ehem) to anyone. Everyone around me is so excited that I'm confused as to why am I not getting any feelings out of this. And even after almost two weeks since the day, (when I say late, I mean that late,) I'm starting to get annoyed by the people that were joking about the fact that I'm engaged. No offense to dearest to-be, but really, we're not officially together, we're just letting our families know that we are going to get together anytime soon, which is not a guarantee of the future.

Okay, that sounds like I really don't want to get engaged. Seriously, it doesn't matter. I'm not the kind of girl who dreams about her wedding day every time she talks to her boyfriend. Just big no. After the fact that our families are in this, instead of dreaming, I started to think of all the responsibilities that I will have to face soon. Responsibilities after we're together, officially. 

I might sound a lot like a heartless person, but trust me, I cried a lot. Just not in front of anyone. And most of the time, I'd like to see things from the objective point of view, instead of the feelings that are involved in it. Yes, I think about how am I going to manage my own home when I rarely help my mum around the house. How am I going to keep another person in check when I'm way too carefree about myself. Things like that, responsibilities.



But one thing that might make me sound mushy is that: I'm looking forward to it. A lot. 



p/s: Here's a few photos. Because there is almost no photos in this blog.

Me and future in-law. The torsos at the back are my friends.

Guess which are the torsos. LOL

Hello. :)

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