Dua, tiga hari lepas, kat Twitter heboh orang kutuk budak masscomm. Macam-macam provoke aku jumpa, orang butthurt, orang tak kisah, orang yang pujuk orang butthurt cakap "masscomm awesome", macam-macam lagila. Orang lain maybe tak peduli pun pasal benda ni, tapi yela, kalau dah kena kutuk, mestilah nak bela diri sendiri balik, kan? Ijazah Sarjana Muda Komunikasi dan Pengajian Media dengan Kepujian (Kewartawanan). Tu course aku. Aku tak cakap aku budak masscomm dah, aku cakap aku budak Journalism. Sebab apa? Sebab fundamental masscomm dah belajar masa diploma. Masa diploma, yup, aku budak masscomm. (Sekarang pun masscomm, tapi dah ada major). Sebagai budak yang dulunya suka Fizik dan bercita-cita nak sambung belajar Fizik dan kerja dalam bidang Fizik (astronomi ye, tapi kata orang macam far-fetched sangat), aku boleh nampak beza susah senang Fizik (atau subjek Sains in general la) dengan masscomm ni. Memang betul pun belajar masscomm ni senang je, tak macam belaja...
Bah! I'm blessed with great instincts. Too great, that sometimes it affected my life in advance. And by advance, I mean, two-three weeks notice. For some reason, I dreaded going back to this place. Even though it means that I get to go home (I honestly have lost track of where is home exactly) I still dreaded the flight. The airport was a mess, I had a headache that was gone only last night. Plus there's this one guy, who took all my patience not to swing a kick right into his gut. The journey was terrible due to turbulence (I'm not blaming anyone here) and for the first time ever, I can't sleep during a flight. Which is weird, I usually will fall asleep as soon as the flight takes off, all the time. Plus I was unlucky enough to have met a rude flight attendant, who took the rest of my patience level down to the bare minimum. Landed, wait forever for the luggage to arrive, got harassed (bothered) again by a random stranger, went for dinner (finally ha...
Saya tidak lagi punya alasan, punya bukti dan hujah untuk pertahan diri, saya cuma ada kata maaf. Mohon maaf kerana sering menjadi pencetus pergaduhan. Mohon maaf kerana sering tidak memahami. Mohon maaf kerana pada masa yang sama minta untuk difahami. Mohon maaf kerana sering mencari silap. Mohon maaf kerana bersifat anak-anak. Mohon maaf kerana terlalu pentingkan diri. Mohon maaf kerana terlalu memaksa. Mohon maaf kerana selalu terlupa kita masing-masing punya tanggungjawab berbeza. Mohon maaf, dan akan cuba lebih baik lagi. Apa lagi yang tinggal, kalau satu-satunya yang ada itu pergi begitu sahaja?
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