Mood Swings

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Sometimes I do think that life is unfair, but I keep telling myself that there are people who are in worst condition than I am and I tell myself, "This is nothing".

Which is something like a denial to myself.

Oh, yes. I know when I'm being in a delusion. When I keep telling myself that everything is okay and I only felt worse. When I tried to smile to everyone but it came as a grimace. When I tried to make a joke but it came as an insult.

Wrong. Wrong. Wrong.

I think I'm entitled to get mood swings, I'm a girl after all. But I know, I'm not supposed to vent everything to people around me. Now that's wrong. I should take a breather, take a break and forget that I'm in a mood swing. Forget that I'm feeling miserable for no reason.

Heck, I'm a paranoid girl. I have way too much obsessions, way too much phobias. My obsessions are known to annoy people around me, my phobias are making people irritated by my reactions. 

I'm trying my best to adapt in this world, so tell me if I did wrong. Again and again, until I stopped doing it. I'm still learning, after all. :)

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