a Life's Story

You know, once in a while I would get really scared of life, scared of what will, what won't happen. Sometimes it's baseless, sometimes it's because I'm waiting or dreading something, or maybe of the fact that I know nothing of what will happen. But eventually I will pull through, by myself, by a lot of help, or things just fall into place. Yet nothing like this, maybe because this is not about just me anymore. Yeah, I was scared I was making the wrong choice when I get married. I wasn't entirely convinced that it's going to last long, for countless reason. See, that part of me that is thinking about the worst possibility, sometimes eats me up. But yeah, since it's just me battling my own thoughts, and I will push them away. I don't know about this time. You see, weeks before my wedding I freaked out, even freaked my husband, but yeah, we got married anyway. I finally got down to the fact that if something is going to be, then face it. Face it l

"Kitorang dah kena dulu, korang ni hadap jela," "Kitorang dulu lagi teruk, manja sangat semua nak complain," Imagine, saying this again after 30 years. Imagine, even after 30 years, nothing has changed. Imagine, after 30 years, you are not moving anywhere simply because you refuse to change the way it has always been. Change is not scary. Change is not for the simple minded people. Change is not for the lazy ones, who preferred the way it was simply because it's better for them but not everyone. Change is not easy. Changing mentality cannot be done by only one revolutionary individual. Changing mentality is teamwork, a team that is willing to work for the benefit of everyone, not just pampering selected individuals. Thinking that juniors should always do the little things to learn, and condemning them when they are not able to, after they are tired of it, are the reason why mentality cannot be changed. Seniors are superior than juniors. Really? Experience s

Love is seeing all the dark sides but still trying to shed light on it.